This the look I feel…..
Yeah, for the last year ½ I’ve been home with cancer and from all the Chemo’s, Radiations, X-Rays , pet scans and cat scans all these put make’s soul so tired. Podcast? Yeah, haven’t got to get a new one up because I’ve been so tired my son want to get them going he’s been the push, I do thank him a Great kid, Plus he like being on them to he have a lot a fun. But I tell you it been like being locked up in prison sometime’s. My mind turns inside out a times, depression is unreal I feel like I’m withering and dying. But I still push on to win to beat something I know in the back of my head the odds are so great, I do know I most likely won’t beat this. But this the story of life to try to give it all that you can give even if you know it’s all in vain. Today I just looked out window and wonder what can I do today work in my wood shop would be nice, but if I start a project will I be able to finish it? The Doctor said that things are looking good but you still have to go and see another doctor, might be more chemo? BUT, I want to do more Podcast shows, but for how long? Cancer I feel for anyone who has it and I can say I DO HOW YOU FEEL AT TIMES! But today I feel lost. Depression is always fun, like having a loaded gun at your head.
